my dad's spirit has been hanging around.  when he was 'alive' he was a bit of a jerk.  never satisfied, always complaining and often angry.

now his spirit has changed.  he's quick to be loving and share intimate moments, like cuddling.  it's wonderful when he visits me.  he's young and vibrant and willing to give me encouragement in my light and shadow work.

what a surprise.

being one with infinity seems to have a different meaning for me than most everyone i read or hear or see.  being one with all that is to me means not only loving unconditionally, it also means hating and fearing unconditionally, at the same time.  it also means doing this with and without shame or judgment, all at the same time.  this is where the non-dual and the dual come together, like poles of a magnet, positive and negative, forward and backward, north and south, all relative to a position.   and the ones who are one with infinity are....

well one weird paradox i've found is that there is actually no one who isn't one with infinity.  it is impossible not to be one with infinity.  it is quite common that people do not understand that they are already one with everything.  it is also quite common that people judge others as less than one with the universe.  i've done that plenty, both with myself and others.  but it's a lie, we are all fused completely into one with infinity.  and it's not wrong to judge others, if that is how you are being, then that is how you are being one with the universe.

i have preferences, some that i'm more attached to than others.  but when i understand my oneness, then i realize that not only is my preference part of who i am, but also the exact opposite is just as much a part of me.   i'm going to keep trying to point at this non-dual view.   pointing at infinity is not as easy as it sounds.  lol